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Treacherous Cunt

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I would like to rant a bit. If you read this some of you may get it and some of you may not. Oh heck! I don’t even get it! I’m in a fight that I can’t win. I know I’ll lose but that doesn’t stop me from trying to get control of the situation. Mindfkd is always the instigator in these fights and it makes me hate/love him all that much more.

My friends know that when Mindfkd and I got together I was pretty new to kink. I had enough experience to know I wanted beatings and I wanted a bit of humiliation. Through talking I realized he is one kinky motherfucker. Unfortunately/fortunately I fell in love with the man. So when we began our relationship I sent him a detailed message nixing all the kinks I was not interested in. This one: nope! That one: Never going to happen! That other thing you told me about: dream on buddy! For me that was the end of the conversation.

Mindfkd is a sly one though. He doesn’t push, he doesn’t demand and he doesn’t bitch and moan about not getting something. What he does do is drop crumbs to a starving girl. A little crumb here, a little crumb there….next thing I know I’m saying: just give me the fucking loaf of bread! His timing is impeccable when it comes to dropping crumbs. He knows when I’m feeling the most needy. Over the months of getting to know me he has learned the signs, which make me the most stupidly agreeable twat out there!! Our relationship is also CNC and with this I have discovered the less limits I have the more I enjoy the power exchange.

Now for the rant! I know! You read a long time for a set up!

Before I started dating Satan in sheep’s clothing, I felt like my mind and body were in unity. We liked what we liked and it worked for us, or so we thought. It’s not like that anymore. There is a bloody war going on! Mindfkd will suggest a scene to me and my mind rebels, my mouth says what my mind is thinking but that treacherous cunt of mine drips for his suggestion! She has become the third wheel in our relationship! Her opinion is taken into consideration long before my mind. (not because I care what she thinks but because he’s in control and she’s his damn wing man!) So often after he makes a suggestion and I respond with how I feel about it, he will use my own cunt against me as the deciding vote! How is that even fair? She doesn’t think, she aches, she clenches and drools with need. She is stupid and selfish. It’s all gimme gimme gimme with her.

I know I am not the kinkiest person out there. I don’t even fit in the top percentage of kink but this is more relative to where I am in my experiences. Let me give you examples of what I’m talking about and how this goes for me.

Mindfkd: I am going to make some friends and then I’m going to invite them over when I want and let them fuck and abuse you. They’ll piss on you. Spit on you and you’ll be so sore after you won’t be able to walk. You’re nothing but a cocksleeve. A whore for me to offer to whoever I want, whenever I want.

Note: this was a hard limit for me at one time. Gangbangs were never something I fantasied about or even watched in porn and I watch a lot of porn.

My mind/mouth: Daddy, I’m not sure that is something I need. I don’t have any experience with multiple men. It scares me a bit. I need baby steps on this one. I’m not sure how that will make me feel. It might not be something that works for me.

Treacherous Cunt: {drip, clench, ache}. Shut up mind! You have no idea what you’re talking about! We need this! We want this. The lack of control, the humiliation the soreness. We need it all! Nothing but a fuck hole for Daddy and his friends. Now go find some gangbang rape porn to try to fill this ache.

Note 2: lucky for my mind, Daddy doesn’t have friends. None local to me anyway.

So you see that stupid cunt is leading me down a path I once put the road closed sign on. That’s just one example of so so many. I want you to know if there are any pictures that come up this year that looks like something you wouldn’t expect me to like, I got voted down. It had nothing to do with what my thoughts or words said. Mindfkd and my treacherous cunt do all the decision making. I love him but she is a traitor! I’m a soccer mom Dammit!

Note 3: if you have any good porn links please add them to the comments! Lol